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this past thursday the girls from my bible study threw me a little baby shower. we were supposed to eat dessert at a little bistro on main street, however, those plans fell thru when that little restaurant was found to be closed. so quickly, i suggested the ole’ AppleBee’s because i love blondies. both the little 19 month olds named Jackson and the dessert. so, off we went. we had a really sweet waiter named Michael who was a bit overwhelmed with us. after all, 5 out of the 10 of us are pregnant.

i haven’t laughed so hard in so long. that was the best therapy anyone could have offered me. just when i’m feeling consumed by the daunting task of raising two little boys, my sweet friends rallied to lift my spirits and remind me not to take myself so seriously. and might i mention that my super sweet friends from work have also uplifted me so much this past week. thank you so much lacey, kendra, melanie and claudia for all of your sweet, sweet comments on my previous post.

i shouldn’t go into too many details because i know some guys read this blog as well as some family members, but lets just say, no discomfort of pregnancy went undiscussed. and i have never laughed harder. the funniest part of the night was when one of the pregnant gals (i’ll keep her name anonymous) was offered a fiber one bar. after a plate of mozzarella sticks and a little desert called the triple chocolate meltdown she quickly seized the fiber one bar and dipped it into the remaining ice cream on her plate as only a woman would do if plagued by the discomfort of constipation. we all watched in amazement and i couldn’t catch my breath i was laughing so hard. she was so stinkin’ cute about the whole thing. it was like something out of a movie.

i love these girls like they are my sisters and have known many of them since middle school. i am so blessed to call them my friends. i love you gals so much! thank you for such a wonderful night and for such a generous baby gift.

uuggh… ok, so jackson has been sick for the past week. sick like we have never (thankfully) experienced before. he had the croup and on one particular night i even thought i should take him to the ER because it had gotten so bad. i stayed up the entire night with the lights on just watching my child breathe and counting his respirations to make sure they were not too fast and that his lip were not turning blue. anyway, now he is on the mend physically, but mentally and emotionally he would like to still be sick. basically what i’m saying is that he still thinks i am suppose to hold him during naps and sleep with him at night. for nap time, like always, we sit on our rocker and i squeeze him onto my enormous belly and we rock. usually his eyes become heavy and I easily transition him from my lap to his crib while he’s awake, but just before his eyes close, and he nods off to sleep NO PROBLEM! not so much today. every time i even began to stop he would pop up and say “NO MAMA.” well, big mama can do that for a while, but then i have to pee. not like, ok bladder, i’ll go in just a few minutes, but like if you don’t go and pee now you’re going to wish they made pampers in your size kinda pee. so, i gently place him in his crib and he immediately begins to scream and say, “NO MAMA… CHAIR. PLEASE!” oh, just break my heart now. to this day, it still completely crushes me to hear my child scream. STILL! and we have had plenty of practice in the screaming department. hearing him scream just sets me off. it will turn my good day into a bad one. isn’t that horrible. i feel so guilty for letting him cry it out, but in just a few short weeks when reality serves him a big helping of “you are not the only child anymore” i don’t know what else to do. how in the world am i going to manage two babies screaming? question #1: is it acceptable to cry with them? question #2: will you pray for me? because acceptable or not, i’m sure i will be crying with them. in 4 weeks or less, i’m relatively certain i’m in for big TROUBLE.

five years ago today, i married my high school sweetheart, kelly. i am blessed to experience life with her every day, and i am honored to call her my best friend, my wife, and the mother of our son. each year on our anniversary, it is difficult not to reflect on all that has happened the previous year. this is particularly true right now, as we have just completed a decade in our lives. ten years. wow.

ten years ago today, if you would have asked about my future plans, the answer would have been simple. with a full scholarship to play baseball in college, i had set an attainable goal of being a professional athlete. it consumed me, and i really never thought of a career without baseball. there was no question that i would be playing this sport for many years to come. several injuries later, i began to realize that God had other plans for me, and that my life was slowly becoming what it was meant to be.

in the course of the last ten years, i graduated high school, played college baseball, broke some bones, played some more baseball, broke some more bones, got married, bought a house, graduated college, started a business, and brought a son into this world. looking back, i would not change the course of those events for anything. these have been the most exciting and meaningful years of my life, and there is no way to truly capture all that has happened.

as i look forward to the next ten years, there is no doubt that they will be just as memorable. there are so many new things right around the corner for our family. just to mention a few, we are expecting another baby boy in february, we have started construction on our new house, viewfromzero is growing, and i am researching the possibility of yet another creative business venture. we will certainly keep you posted on each of these events.

i write all of this in both reflection of the past and hope for the future. i wish each and every one of you a happy new year, and perhaps instead of focusing on resolutions, we should just enjoy the ride. after all, a lot can happen in ten years.